Sunday, April 11, 2010

For me it happens all the time.

Something about apartment viewing yesterday just freaked me out. I wish it was like living at, take this very large boatload of money, and in exchange, give me a place to live. K. Thanks. I don't understand how any of this stuff works, or how much it all costs, and it's making me crazy. I'm just overestimating everything in hopes that I don't have to worry about not having enough money to pay for something once bills come in.

Am I spoiled because I never had to worry about my own bills before? Maybe. Am I a baby because I wish I could live on campus next year? Maybe. Do I care? Nope.

I was just starting to accept the fact that things aren't always easy, and that it's okay. That it's just normal, it's a normal part of being 21 and in school, and that just because things are easy, doesn't mean I am happy. I feel like I took steps forward, and now I'm back where I started. It's so frustrating.