Wednesday, January 20, 2010

If this isn't rambling, I'm not sure what is.

I think, more than anything in this world, I wish I didn't get as nervous as I do. I get nervous about EV.ER.Y.THINGGGGG. No matter how many times I tell myself that, (whatever "it" is) will be over soon, won't be that bad, or is really nothing to worry about...I find myself shaking anyway. I have no control over it either. Sometimes, it's truly awful. Then, sometimes, things like my recital will happen...I was insanely nervous, and it SHOWED in my playing-but I wasn't shaking, I wasn't crying, and I wasn't freaking out. It holds me back form doing things that I want to do, and it's starting to bother me more.

I'm still happy to be back at school...but I feel so unorganized. I lost my mojo, I want it back :-(

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

It is 1:42 am and I am not sleeping, why?

It really must be time to go back to school. There's just something about 11 of two things can happen. I either go COMPLETELY crazy, and giggly and silly and just ready for bed, OR I say...let's get everything that I should have been doing all day accomplished. Tonight is an example of the latter.

It's not news to anybody that I want to be back at UConn. Nothing excluded. Bring on the classes, lessons, practicing, working out, babysitting, working in VDM, going out, having fun, Pep Band, Upper Leadership responsibilities...everything. I'm so excited for the Spring Semester. I always say that it's a time to start everything fresh and new, and this time, I feel like it really is. Not everything is perfect, nor do I think it will be, but I'm making changes for the better. I have no complaints, and I'm still the happiest I've ever been.

1:49 am. Time to go write emails, of course. WHY AM I NOT SLEEPY.

Monday, January 4, 2010

I've got the world on a string.

First entry of the New Year. Back from Alabama after an unforgettable trip. Now, time to count down the days til I can move back into Rosebrooks 420. Do I have a New Year's Resolution? Eh, kind of. I didn't really put a lot of thought into one...I usually don't. I suppose if I had one, it would be to continue the progress I've made as far as my attitude and general happiness with life. Everything is so much better this way.
I also want to start reading more. It's harder when school starts, but I can try anyway. Also, what kind of New Year would it be if I didn't say I was going to hit the gym more? Anybody up for being my gym buddy this semester? Let me know...

Time to organize my life and stretch...because 24 hours on a bus followed by a night of sleep on Will's couch did not do my muscles any favors.