In the shadows, in the darkness.

I've pretty much been trying to do this anyway, but I'm desperately trying to stop spending money.  Not very easy, seeing as 80-90% of the money I've spent in the past week or so was music related.  I finally bought Carnival of Venice for my recital, and then I needed more trumpet books.  In a random move, I also bought a capo, so that I can continue to learn to play the guitar, and play everything in the correct key.  I'm not making a ton of money this summer, (my own decision) but I will hopefully have two jobs at school this year.  If the stars align, (a.k.a. the rumors are true, I have the money and the days off from band) I want to see DMB again.  There is talk of a fall tour, and if they are in NYC or Boston, I see no reason why I shouldn't go up and see them.  It won't be the end of the world if I don't go, but it sure would be nice...

I'm going to see if I can get into a rhythm this week.  The 3.1 miles I ran on Friday were rough, but I've now had two days off, and I need to get back at it.  A weekend full of family and parties was wonderful, but damn, does it throw me off track.  I also need to get back to practicing more regularly, and organizing myself to get ready to go back to UConn.  There's 25ish days left until I need to leave, and I'm kind of feeling weird about it.  I really miss some people, a lot...but I'm perfectly content being home.  My mom keeps telling me that the year goes so fast, why haven't I learned that yet...well, I don't know why, but you would think this transition would get easier after 4 years.  So much for that.  I make things much more complicated than need be.

Things I'm a little freaked about: student teaching,  preparing for Praxis II, deciding if I want to do grad school now or look for a job first, marching band in general, living in the apartment full time...why is it so difficult for me to get used to this stuff?