Buon Natale!

One of my favorite Christmas songs...'tis the season to be Italian :-)

Tu scendi dalle stelle,
O Re del Cielo,
e vieni in una grotta,
al freddo al gelo.


O Bambino mio Divino
Io ti vedo qui a tremar,
O Dio Beato
Ahi, quanto ti costò
l'averci amato!


A te, che sei del mondo
il Creatore,
mancano panni e fuoco;
O mio Signore!


Caro eletto Pargoletto,
Quanto questa povertà
più mi innamora!
Giacché ti fece amor
povero ancora!


(From starry skies descending,
Thou comest, glorious King,
A manger low Thy bed,
In winter's icy sting;


O my dearest Child most holy,
Shudd'ring, trembling in the cold!
Great God, Thou lovest me!
What suff'ring Thou didst bear,
That I near Thee might be!


Thou art the world's Creator,
God's own and true Word,
Yet here no robe, no fire
For Thee, Divine Lord.


Dearest, fairest, sweetest Infant,
Dire this state of poverty.
The more I care for Thee,
Since Thou, o Love Divine,
Will'st now so poor to be.)

I love holidays at my house. Dana said today that my house always looks so festive. That's one of the things I miss most when I'm at school. My house is always decorated for the season. I don't think it's ever overkill, and it's definitely not one of those overly decorated houses with more Christmas lights than the front yard has room for, but it's always festive.

I've been putting Christmas music on my iPod, listening to said music, buying decorations, and brainstorming gifts. I just need to bake some cookies.

I guess I sort of forgot that I like home just as much as I like school. Thank gosh I have another year of school so I can split the difference, because I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm done with UConn.

What am I doing to myself.

I haven't written here in a long time. How can I make it a legit blog if I never write?

Unless you live under a rock, you know about Jasper Howard. All I know is that I will always remember these words from his post-game interview:

"Play every play like it's the last play you'll ever play." Jasper Howard.

Rest in peace. UConn Huskies, stay strong.

It must be the allergy medicine. Last night I fell asleep at 6 pm, woke up at 9:30 pm, then went back to sleep some time around 11:30 pm, and slept til 7:30 am. How many hours is that? Probably too many. The baby is still kind of sick and out of sorts as well, so we're both just lounging. Eventually we'll venture all the way out to the front yard to play in the sprinklers. I don't even have the energy to bring her down to the beach.

School is draining me and it hasn't even begun. But instead of trying to fix it, I dwell. I will always dwell. I just told a friend to stop dwelling and speculating, and it's all I ever do. Why can't I ever just follow my own damn advice...

I really don't know any way to say this without sounding lame and msuhy, but God, I love my friends. Instead of just looking forward to the next time I can see them, I dwell on the fact that most of them have graduated, and weekends at UConn will never be the same.

Are we seeing a pattern here?

Reading List

Finished

In progress

1. My Sister's Keeper
2. Twilight
3. The Memory Keeper's Daughter
4. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
5. The Time-Traveler's Wife




My goal is to see how many books I can read while on vacation, (and during camping).

Randomly:

I feel bad for Michael Jackson. The more TV specials and YouTube videos I watch, the more I begin to think he was a wacked out guy who did absolutely nothing wrong. I think he was just so screwed up from a screwed up childhood, he just wanted to live a life he didn't get to have when he was younger. Regardless of all that, I find this truly amazing...

"Michael Jackson is back on top of the Billboard charts.

Billboard says albums by the pop singer who died suddenly last week at the age of 50 will occupy nine of the top 10 spots on the Top Pop Catalog Album chart being released on Wednesday."

That's ridiculous. Creep or not a creep, no one else could do that.

I'd rather watch MJ coverage than J&K + 8 coverage, because I get angry thinking about those poor kids...

It took me freakin' forever, but I finished book #1 for the summer, My Sister's Keeper, and I'm almost done with Twilight. Then it's on to The Memory Keeper's Daughter and the rest of the Twilight series.

I have so much to do tomorrow-clean, reorganize and straighten up this room, and literally drag my butt to the gym for the first time in over a week. Ugh.

Maybe it's time for a proper update.

I locked myself out of my car today. Good thing Gina was around to pick me up. I don't know what I would do without her.

Doctor today. I'm completely healthy, minus the weight issue and the constant fatigue. So, until after the blood test tomorrow, I'm just fat and lazy. As much as it would suck to have a medical issue, the one plus side to a low thyroid problem or something of that sort would be that there's a reason I'm over weight and can fall asleep anywhere. As bad as it sounds...maybe it wouldn't suck to have a medical reason for being so lethargic all the time...because then I'd feel like it's not really my fault that I'm exhausted ALL the time and hate the gym. Oh well.

I'm hitting the point in the summer where I want to go back to school. I'm nervous as per usual about next year, and I'm nervous because Nate won't be there to help me anymore, but I'm also excited. Last year was a mess, between KKPsi crap and Neag apps, but when I got my Dean's List letter, it was kind of worth it.

I just wish I didn't have to apply for more loans. I hate the whole process. My father is impossible to deal with. I seriously need to hit the lottery, pronto. Maybe going on a week-long vacation this year wasn't the smartest idea, but I'm overly excited about it. I need the beach.

I need more routine in my life, but it's almost impossible since my week isn't very consistent.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, babysitting 9-5 or so.
Thursdays off.
Friday and Saturday at Edible. If they schedule me. Buh.

In completely unrelated news, this whole North Korea thing scares the crap out of me. No matter what anybody says about how it won't happen. It's still scary.

It's only 9:02 and I have nothing to do. Buh.

Babysitting today/now. At least it was nice enough to go to the Point and the beach.
I was going to write a full blown entry, but I'm suddenly incredibly exhausted.

Here's a long(er) post for Kristin to have something to read.

I am the follow things right now:

2 pounds lighter.
On the Spring 2009 Dean's List.
Broke. Really. I have about $30 to my name and won't get any money til next week.
A few shades darker, the sun being out was nice for once. Too bad it's going to rain from tomorrow until doomsday.
Almost done with Physics. Class tomorrow, exam Monday, done.
SO excited for my birthday party. It's 2 weeks late, but who cares? I'm glad that some UConn folks are going to make it down, I miss them a lot. And we're going on 3 years of celebrating my birthday at Wild Wings, so I think I've officially established a tradition.
Pretty content right now.

(Kristin, I really have nothing else to talk about.)

Stay tuned for possible party stories after Friday.

I just did something very unlike me.
I went shopping. And it made me HAPPY.
I'm so pumped for Friday. I should start writing more. For all my adoring fans out there...ha.

It's been awhile.
I turn 21 in an hour and 3 minutes.
Dave Matthews ALL weekend...one day rain, one day shine.
I wish I had more to say.

iT'S SUMMERTiME!!!!!!!!!!

JURY JURY JURY JURY JURY JURY JURY JURY. That's tomorrow.

Thursday off. English on Friday. D-U-N done done done.

I'll be home Saturday. I am so excited. Weird? I guess. But excited.
I need a new job. That'll be what Monday is for.
I have a lot of things to pay for. I need moneyyy, but who doesn't?
I don't have anything to complain about, so I guess I don't have much to write about either.
I just really miss East Haven, and my friends, and being home. Weird.

The sun makes me so happy.
2 weeks. 2 weeks and then I'm done. Thank. God.

My goal for Spring Weekend: TAN!

I'm kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm miserable at school, and miserable at home. I don't know exactly what or who makes me happy anymore. I don't know what it's like to be happy for an extended period of time. It's very discouraging.

Summer:

Job, classes, babysitting, bonfires, birthday, 21, going to the bar, Dave Matthews, OAR, vacation plans, beaches, driving, late nights, early mornings, potential, practicing, lessons, working out, losing weight, fireworks, cookouts, sleeping out, going to shows...

This summer has so much potential. I just want to run with it.

32 days until I can come home.
32 days until I can start making money, catching up on credits, having bonfires, and spending time with my best friends.

I'm bored, and I don't have much else to write, so I guess I'll watch the UCMB DVD...cool...

Asdfghjkl.

I want to go home again. Luckily, I am going home on Friday. I miss my East Haven people...

For anybody that was interested, Detroit is possibly the worst city in the county. I mean, my trip might have been tainted by the drunk Michigan State fan yelling obscenities as we tried to get on the pep band bus back to the hotel...but, what's the difference?

The past 3 weeks have been literally a whirl-wind tour of the country. And it was fabulous. Getting to travel with all of my friends really meant a lot to me.

34-ish days, (I can't remember exactly) until the end of school. That includes class days, weekends, and finals week. Holy. Crap.

In other random thoughts...

I still don't know what I want to do for my birthday...
I'm broke and it sucks real bad...
I'm sick of school, for no good reason...

But I'm still feeling okay. I just wish I felt better.

U-C-O-N-N

I don't think I can explain my excitement right now. I just got back from Trenton last night, where the Lady Huskies won the Elite 8, and are headed to St. Louis. Blue band is now headed for Detroit, to watch the UConn men take on Michigan State...
OMGGG.

Jersey was a lot of fun. And I love blue band so much. They're such good people, and fun to be around. We go nuts this time of year. And everybody wants the signs that are backstage at the arena. I'm not really sure where that started, but I'm jealous, not of the ones in this picture, but some of my friends have some really nice NCAA/UConn/Basketball signs and banners.
So, we witnessed the win, and had another dance party with the team. I don't if they realize how excited we get when we play that cheer. The first time we danced like that was last year, when they beat Rutgers in the Elite 8 in Greensboro. Now, I guess it's somewhat of a tradition...? for lack of a better word? Whatever it is, it's fun. They sure look like they're having a blast, and we are too.

I love school spirit. I really do, it's so much fun.


One more day of class, then 8 am call time on Friday morning. Asdasdfghjkl.

I really have nothing else to talk about. And that's okay. :-)

I guess for now I'm into bullet points.
Last day in Jersey.
Leave for Detroit on Friday.
It's going to be sick.
Wednesday and Thursday are easy days.
I need to figure out shit for next year.
I love pep band.

I haven't written in a while.
I am SO SICK.
I leave for New Jersey tomorrow.
I don't really have anything else to talk about.

There's no stopping us

I really have nothing else to do...two updates in a row!

And, with a picture...live and in color...

One day this blog will be really something, pictures and links and fabulous things to talk about, but that's going to be after I get my head together. I have other things to worry about.

Like when I realized this morning I didn't tell one of my professors that I am going to miss our midterm.
Because I will be away for pep band.
And if he doesn't let me miss class and make it up...
I will cry.
No.
Seriously.
Big ugly tears.

Anyway.

UConn women pulled out another win tonight. And by pulled out, I mean steamrollered over Villanova. The game went by quickly, and then I joined my dad in the upper level seats to watch a few minutes of Pitt vs. UL. It was 25-24 when we left about halfway through the first half, but it wasn't that exciting. Kind of sloppy. Both bands sounded good though.

Championship game tomorrow night.

I will now proceed to stay up far too late, attempting to do everything that I wanted to get done this week, so I can enjoy Wednesday-Saturday with no school worries.

I wouldn't bank on it though.

No, seriously, I'm going to do an "update," since I don't really think I have.

1. I GOT INTO NEAG.  YES YES YES YES YES.  For non-UConn folk, I got into the prestigious (?) education school.  So, I'll graduate in 2011 a certified CT teacher, if all keeps going well.  I feel so validated.  I never thought I would be the girl who went to music school.  In high school, I was one of the smart ones.  Now, I work my ass off just to be part of an incredibly small, incredibly competitive crowd.  Thank God I got in, if I didn't, I would have felt like the past 3ish year would have been a waste.  

2. I came home for a week and a few days, starting yesterday.  I have never been so relieved to be home.  School is driving me crazy.  Mostly the people.  Sassiness all around.  I miss my East Haven friends so much, I miss being able to just talk.  Everything at school is so competitive, and revolves around alcohol, and ... is just so annoying.  At home, I do what I want.  At school, I feel so pressured...I just want everybody to like me.  I guess I revert back to 7th grade or 10th grade all over again.  So sad, but so true.  Now I'm just rambling...

Basketball games Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, lunch with Kristin, seeing Anne, Battle of the Bands on Thursday, sleeping in every day, and hopefully another day like this one...

3. I couldn't be happier about today's weather and daylight savings.  I need light in my life.  I swear, winter makes me so freakin' depressed.  I just want to be able to open up the shades, throw open the window, and feel good.  Is that too much to ask?

4.  I turn 21 in June.

A. That's not that far away

B. DAVE MATTHEWS ON MY BIRTHDAY YES YES YES

C. Who's buying me drinks?  All of you people who have wanted to get me drunk since freshman year better step up.

D. What the hell do I even want for my birthday??

This became so much longer than I intended.  I'm going to be up so late...

I don't know what I'm looking forward to more, my 21st birthday or Dave Matthews Band on June 5th.  Is that sad?

To walk within the lines

Would make my life so boring

I want to know that I 

Have been to the extreme

So knock me off my feet

Come on now, give it to me

Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?

Is it enough to breathe?

Somebody rip my heart out

And leave me here to bleed

Is it enough to die?

Somebody save my life

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

I feel like I'm so lost.  I don't know what else to do to make myself feel better.  I can't just be positive like Nate is all the time.  I have no idea how he does it.  

So, sometimes I feel like I have to write things down in order to remember things that I have just figured out...

I have plenty of time to take my lab/Q course that I need to graduate...there will be time to take it with Neag courses if I get into the school of ed, if I don't, I'll have too MUCH time, and I'll take it, and if there's no time because of Neag, I'll have an extra summer to take a class.  WOOO!

Spontaneous Neag interview went fine.  Saw the email at 4:23 that I had an interview at 4:30.  Dr. Neelly was pretty understanding, because she sent out the email so late, and I just sat down and talked.  I think it went better that way.  Less over thinking, more truth and honesty and putting on my best face for Neag.  

I think I may actually get in.  Whoa.

(Knock on wood?)

I think I'm going to try to take more pictures and document my life, kind of make this a "day in the life" blog.  Maybe?

I need a hobby.

I have to make it through today til about 8 or 9.

And then tomorrow until about 6. 

And then, maybe then, I can finally feel comfortable.

I'm sure somebody else knows how it feels to be uncomfortable in a space that's supposed to be yours.  Or how it feels to have everything you do scrutinized.  I love how I'm more comfortable hanging out with my boyfriend and his roommate that I am with almost anybody else.  I'm okay with that, though.  

What I would give for it to be 65 degrees out right now.

Not going to Miami, but I'm okay with that, because it means Nate is staying at his apartment in Storrs and I can see him every day! 

I'm realizing how much money I spend on a weekly basis and how it needs to stop.  I don't really NEED anything right now.  Now that the semester has started and I have the supplies I need,  I really need to stop spending so much.  I have a DVD player now, banquet is over, and there's really no need to buy so much stuff...mostly, food.  I'm going to try really hard to stop.  I just got a job and I'm thinking that if I can save what I make, and keep the little bit that I have, that maybe, just maybe, my parents might be willing to help me out with taking a summer course in May.  I really would like to stay up here for 3 weeks in the summer.  Home is so boring that month, since everybody else is still at school at Southern and Eastern, and I always thought that campus was so nice in the summer, and I miss out on spending time at UConn when it's actually nice out.  

That's my plan...hopefully, I can follow through.

Possibly, possibly, POSSIBLY going to Miami in 2 weeks, just for a weekend.  I don't want to get my hopes up, but I would love it so much..

More freaking snow.  I swear, it better snow when classes start and cancel some, or I will be upset.  

I still don't have much to talk about.  Oh well.

Reading List 2009

Last summer, in an effort to fill my time with something more worthwhile, I started reading more.  I haven't read besides schoolwork in awhile, but now that it's break, I can start again.  For awhile, I know Kristin has been trying to read 50 books in a year.  I can imagine it's near impossible, especially when the spring semester starts again, but I can try.  

1. P.S. I Love You-Cecelia Ahern

2. The Tempest-Shakespeare 

New year, new blog!!

I'm saying goodbye to livejournal, because, well, honestly...go read it.  Seriously.  It's the saddest thing ever.  Everything is the same over, and over, and over...etc.

I'm currently babysitting right now, so I'll spend more time on this later.  

For now, Happy New Year!