If this isn't rambling, I'm not sure what is.

I think, more than anything in this world, I wish I didn't get as nervous as I do. I get nervous about EV.ER.Y.THINGGGGG. No matter how many times I tell myself that, (whatever "it" is) will be over soon, won't be that bad, or is really nothing to worry about...I find myself shaking anyway. I have no control over it either. Sometimes, it's truly awful. Then, sometimes, things like my recital will happen...I was insanely nervous, and it SHOWED in my playing-but I wasn't shaking, I wasn't crying, and I wasn't freaking out. It holds me back form doing things that I want to do, and it's starting to bother me more.

I'm still happy to be back at school...but I feel so unorganized. I lost my mojo, I want it back :-(

It is 1:42 am and I am not sleeping, why?

It really must be time to go back to school. There's just something about 11 pm...one of two things can happen. I either go COMPLETELY crazy, and giggly and silly and just ready for bed, OR I say...let's get everything that I should have been doing all day accomplished. Tonight is an example of the latter.

It's not news to anybody that I want to be back at UConn. Nothing excluded. Bring on the classes, lessons, practicing, working out, babysitting, working in VDM, going out, having fun, Pep Band, Upper Leadership responsibilities...everything. I'm so excited for the Spring Semester. I always say that it's a time to start everything fresh and new, and this time, I feel like it really is. Not everything is perfect, nor do I think it will be, but I'm making changes for the better. I have no complaints, and I'm still the happiest I've ever been.

1:49 am. Time to go write emails, of course. WHY AM I NOT SLEEPY.

I've got the world on a string.

First entry of the New Year. Back from Alabama after an unforgettable trip. Now, time to count down the days til I can move back into Rosebrooks 420. Do I have a New Year's Resolution? Eh, kind of. I didn't really put a lot of thought into one...I usually don't. I suppose if I had one, it would be to continue the progress I've made as far as my attitude and general happiness with life. Everything is so much better this way.
I also want to start reading more. It's harder when school starts, but I can try anyway. Also, what kind of New Year would it be if I didn't say I was going to hit the gym more? Anybody up for being my gym buddy this semester? Let me know...


Time to organize my life and stretch...because 24 hours on a bus followed by a night of sleep on Will's couch did not do my muscles any favors.

Buon Natale!

One of my favorite Christmas songs...'tis the season to be Italian :-)

Tu scendi dalle stelle,
O Re del Cielo,
e vieni in una grotta,
al freddo al gelo.


O Bambino mio Divino
Io ti vedo qui a tremar,
O Dio Beato
Ahi, quanto ti costò
l'averci amato!


A te, che sei del mondo
il Creatore,
mancano panni e fuoco;
O mio Signore!


Caro eletto Pargoletto,
Quanto questa povertà
più mi innamora!
Giacché ti fece amor
povero ancora!


(From starry skies descending,
Thou comest, glorious King,
A manger low Thy bed,
In winter's icy sting;


O my dearest Child most holy,
Shudd'ring, trembling in the cold!
Great God, Thou lovest me!
What suff'ring Thou didst bear,
That I near Thee might be!


Thou art the world's Creator,
God's own and true Word,
Yet here no robe, no fire
For Thee, Divine Lord.


Dearest, fairest, sweetest Infant,
Dire this state of poverty.
The more I care for Thee,
Since Thou, o Love Divine,
Will'st now so poor to be.)

I love holidays at my house. Dana said today that my house always looks so festive. That's one of the things I miss most when I'm at school. My house is always decorated for the season. I don't think it's ever overkill, and it's definitely not one of those overly decorated houses with more Christmas lights than the front yard has room for, but it's always festive.

I've been putting Christmas music on my iPod, listening to said music, buying decorations, and brainstorming gifts. I just need to bake some cookies.

I guess I sort of forgot that I like home just as much as I like school. Thank gosh I have another year of school so I can split the difference, because I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm done with UConn.

What am I doing to myself.

I haven't written here in a long time. How can I make it a legit blog if I never write?

Unless you live under a rock, you know about Jasper Howard. All I know is that I will always remember these words from his post-game interview:

"Play every play like it's the last play you'll ever play." Jasper Howard.

Rest in peace. UConn Huskies, stay strong.